I'd failed... everything was worthless... i felt so weak and useless, like no one would ever need me. I'd failed everyone, my friends, my family, even God... I can't believe what i did... I keep rolling up my sleeves to make sure it wasnt a dream, and when i see, I roll them back down... I'd only dreampt about pain like this, and hadn't known what to think of others who'd felt it before. This is not the pain of heartbreak, nor the pain of cracking under pressure... no.. this is the pain of *failure*. For a few seconds, i thought it was worth it, but then I broke down, and felt destroyed... defeated, and a surge of pain gripped my heart so tightly that I despised every bit of me in that instance... such self-hatred obscured all physical pain, and knowing that i hadn't held back makes me feel even worse... and what would my friends say? they always looked to me... knowing that i was the &quot;clean one&quot;... but now what can i say? all i can do is weep... 2008-05-04T19:04:24Z http://ficlets.com/feed/story/28734 <p>nothing short of a hero. nothing but the truth.</p> http://ficlets.com/stories/28734?basename=60322 2008-05-04T19:04:24Z Just another writer http://ficlets.com/authors/just_another_writer <p>Wow, great job getting right into the anguish and pain of it all. You can really see not only how they feel now, but even a style or propensity in thinking that would have led to it in the first place.<br />LoA</p> http://ficlets.com/stories/28734?basename=59214 2008-04-28T01:02:55Z THX 0477 http://ficlets.com/authors/thx_0477 <p>Very, very powerful, emotional scene you&#8217;ve woven here. The heart brokenness and feeling of utter failure really stand out. Fantastic writing to give such feeling.</p> http://ficlets.com/stories/28734?basename=59188 2008-04-28T00:24:24Z Stovohobo http://ficlets.com/authors/stovohobo