Maiera's Stories

My Apocalypse: End

2008-09-06T00:40:47Z

These broken souls you left in your wake,
in an effort to conquest a craving that could never sate,

these luminescent scars that will never fade,
along the seams of the heart they made.

Hold silent testimony basked in the moonlight of your betrayal.

A mistake that made your grave, penitence not given by denial.

You broke without paying, that which has no cost.
A debt that can’t be paid, so your soul you lost.

Soon, you’ll see. Your vision clear from your painted day.
You may have taken many casualties, but mine, was not one with you to lay.

For now, your lies that shadow your mistakes, follow your footsteps.

A path, that leads right to the foot of a grave that won’t be kept.

You’ll be my demise, that which I can’t resist.

You’ll be my reaper, my love and my apocalypse.

My Apocalypse: Beginning

2008-09-06T00:39:35Z

As the day fades and nite joins misery,

pain takes the place of feigned ignorance.

Time passes stealthed among stolen seconds,

borrowed time, fate holds in my weathered hands.

Don’t speak your mind. Your lies are consumed.

You’ll never know the scars you left, nor the dreams you entombed.

You watched me fade to nothing, looking away near the end,

leaving only that which mistaken time can’t heal, and hate can’t tame. .

Darling. wreck your havoc with my hope, but soon.

You’ll take these words engraved upon your tomb.

Illustrations

2008-08-24T20:41:37Z

You take my hand,and hold it to your heart.
One beat in time,no separation, no part.
Chills take us,the wind warning us of coming pain.
“How do we know we can make it?” I ask,looking down.
Please tell me I’m not right, we’ll be fine.Time alternates again,and instead your eyes draw mine.Watching the colors, painted on the canvas of my heart,I knew.We were two bleeding hearts,and the winds wailing their sorrow, were telling the truth.I smiled gently,and kissed his brow. “You needn’t worry about me now.”The headline braving the false pretense was somewhere in the sunrise. But right now,there was only time,basked in the moonlight.Two paintings entwined together,form a masterpiece.Two bleeding hearts,walking together.The BeginningandEnd of forever.Only tomorrow’s headline will reveal, yesterday’s story to be fact.”We’re all just bleeding hearts” I echo”and there’s no turning back.”We chose then, painting together our colored canvas.Finding what our hearts had searched for, someone to paint our story, at last.

Bleeding Hearts

2008-08-24T20:30:12Z

Paintbushes caress a colored canvas,
painting our story, that has only just began.
Your hand grasps mine suddenly, as you whisper “We’re never alone.”
Time passes. alternating fast and slow.
The headline of today’s story, tomorrow’s ghost.
One racing heartbeat, an adrenaline rush,
Your thumb traces my cheek, eliminating reason with a slight touch.
We gaze at the future, images filling our view.
Opportunity and fate beckoning, enticing us to move.
But as you kiss my shoulder, you make it hard to breathe.
leaving no room for thought, no desire, nor need.
My eyes alight, looking into yours, drunken in the moment,
Opportunity loses light, the colors to my paint you hold within your heart.
Ignoring the headline, blaring inevitability. We dance in the starlight.
Following wherever our hearts take us, despite walking upon the road of fools.
You hold my dreams even as you hold me as tightly.
We know the end is coming, we can see it in the Sunrise.
“we’re all just bleeding hearts”, you say.

My Apocalypse: Part 2

2008-08-24T19:53:42Z

For now, your lies shadow your mistakes, following your footsteps.

A path, that leads right to the foot of a grave that won’t be kept.

You’ll be my demise, that which I can’t resist.

You’ll be my reaper, my love and my apocalypse.

My Apocalypse: Part One

2008-08-24T19:52:24Z

As the day fades and nite joins misery,
pain takes the place of feigned ignorance.
Time passes stealthed among stolen seconds,
borrowed time, fate holds in my weathered hands.
Don’t speak your mind. Your lies are consumed.
You’ll never know the scars you left, nor the dreams you entombed.
You watched me fade to nothing, looking away near the end,
leaving only that which mistaken time can’t heal, and hate can’t tame.
Darling. wreck your havoc with my hope, but soon.
You’ll take these words engraved upon your tomb.
These broken souls you left in your wake,
in an effort to conquest a craving that could never sate,
these luminescent scars that will never fade,
along the seams of the heart they made.
Hold silent testimony basked in the moonlight of your betrayal.
A mistake that made your grave, penitence not given by denial.
Soon, you’ll see. Your vision clear from your painted day.
You may have taken many casualties, but mine, was not one with you to lay…..

Silver slivers of my dreams

2008-06-06T23:12:19Z

darkened skies with clouds of grey,
let rain the animosity the shame.
The faded stars once again a light,
the beginning of a beautiful night.
Moonbeams dancing through the sky,
illuminate the path.
Stone-bricked silence encompassing the loud whispers of the past.
Shining stars lift free the echoes of my dreams,
dancing within the wind to be free.
My farfetched fantasy, my heart’s truth.
Slivers of silver moonlight, a wish upon a star,
to become reality.

Dreamless Sleep

2008-03-14T22:40:21Z

I heard them calling my name, but it sounded so far away, I ignored the tiny murmur. Reluctance locked my body, as I stood precariously on the edge, and the room began to spin.

Why? Why must this always happen? He was always the strong one. The one nothing could hurt.

I fell back into the chair, my head resting silently against his hands, as what seemed to be ghosts gathered silently around me. I didn’t move, pain rigid, and exhausted. I had tried to hard to deny it, too hard to ignore the truth.

Slowly, I began to realize the room with all the machines had manifested into a waiting room, where I laid with a blanket covering me. Shivering, I looked around the strange room and saw my little brother sleeping in my lap, peacefully snoring.

What I would give to be so young and resiliant. So oblivious to the pain of death and reality.

I fixed the blanket that covered us both, and laid back down, exhaustion enticing me once more to a dreamless sleep.

Death's Goodbye

2008-03-12T23:05:46Z

Pushing away the helplessness, I stood, leaning forward cautiously as if he might disappear when I touched him. Gently, I placed a kiss to his weathered and work-hardened hands; remaining oblivious to the outside factors, the bright beautiful day, the sparkling water and beautiful garden.

I became enveloped.
Only seeing Death.
Death claiming another precious addition that had once adorned my life.

Tears once again retraced the crisscrossed trails of denial that were my cheeks, as I silently said goodbye to the one person who had always had faith in me.

Paralyzing Reality

2008-03-12T23:05:02Z

After what seemed to be an eternity of nostalgia, I desperately clung to our memories. Telling him each loving anecdote as if he could still hear me. While his chest rose, fell, rose, fell, rose and fell, a steady rustling of rhythm amidst the beeps and clicks of the many machines maintaining his final link to this earth.

Physically I was paralyzed. Crouched on the floor, with my knees pulled up in front of me, as if they would shield me from what I knew my eyes were already seeing. An empty shell they claimed was my beloved grandfather. The surrounding air suffocated me in unfamiliarty, my breathing became harder and harder, while my tears mimicked, rushing down my face in thick waterfalls.

Silence

2008-02-23T02:19:29Z

My heart calls out to you
while my mind screams your name
as I watch the distance grow
my strength begins to leave me..
Frozen in place, watching as
the best part of me walks silently away
I begin to become numb…...
Once again you took a piece of me
that will forever reside within your heart
and here I am yet again without feeling
and the all to sudden reality…
That I am silently surrending,
and
mercilessly falling apart

Desolation's End

2008-02-10T19:20:38Z

Through desloation, and pergatory’s unnatural fire
I layed, unable to move, frozen in the isolation
Thoughts never ceasing, a neverending flood
of tears continued to soak, but never soothe
the burning that surrounded my broken heart
Never enough to stop the endless torture
the memories of us that haunted my dreams
the want to just give up, give in to the hungry flames
nothing ever appearing to be what they seemed
Denial, Deceit, Dependancy
Layering upon the ruins that were my foundation
My hands outstretched but unfortunately no one would listen
My pleas rang soundless, reaching selective ears
the answers being that of gilded happiness and then an everlasting pain
Silence encompassing that which used to be my heart
Memories began to get stronger and stronger
until they no longer were just memories,
and living each one like they were reality
i lived those days with you, and it seemed
to make everything else so small and my salvation was there within your hands.

Faith Though Fire

2008-02-10T19:07:23Z

You took my broken wings
and healed them with your hands
My shattered dreams you picked up
all the pieces and put them together again
I was lost within the fire
consumed for what seemed eternity
Your love reached in and pulled me out unscathed
a miracle within all the pain
Appearing when I needed you most
you never let me down
my guardian angel
Please don’t give up on me now.

Enticed and Taken

2008-02-03T22:35:39Z

Smoldering eyes, a fiery touch
no escaping the endless torture
unbridled passion, a need of release
Undeniably enticing the senses
ignorant love, feigned independance
air cracking in the sparking of emotions
muscles tense, adrenaline racing
the need to be near overwhelming
subtle glances, but deadly looks
Cease the beginning of what was to be spoken
Overpowered and drawn
beneath the swirling shades
watching as your fear is thus enveloped
and reality begins to slowly fade away

Recycle

2008-01-20T10:16:34Z

Time passed, and seasons changed
but the feelings just never seemed to fade
the hollow. the abundance. the falling apart.
all began a continuous cycle
Pain and love, then numb and lost
the rollercoaster called life that never stops