Mibs0521's Stories

Shameful Love

2008-04-20T22:44:55Z

In the beginning, all was fun and games. But when it came right down to it, all was lost in this war. He walked into the night, taking with him my whole heart and most of my fire, passion and soul.

I loved this cursed man. But why? How? Who would I betray but my self with this love? But among all of these quetions, I begin to think, “Why put myself, my family and everyone I have grown to love in shame?”

Each time I must force myself to come to terms with ending us, he lures me in with his charm. Then, once he knows he has me, he casts his spell and away with him I go. Magical moments follow the casting of his spell. I inhale his scent into my lungs, and allow his unspeakable acts to pleasure me.

I will not allow myself to speak of us. I know if I tell my family, they will cast me away to the shadows of fear and deceit. When I long to be with him, and ache to pleasure him, I must remember that he is with another during daylight. But at night when he is mine, I think of nothing but the fire between us.

Arguing Within

2008-04-20T22:31:38Z

And after it was over, I began to wonder again, “What happened?”

When she left, I was able to think. My head would clear for one split moment, and then, for what seemed like hours, I would wait for the tantalizing touch again. But when I was caught in the moment of this sense enhancing playfulness, I kept thinking, “But this is so wrong!”

And after she was through, the cycle would begin again. I would begin to ponder, I would come to a conclusion, then I would begin to worry. “It’s been a while since she’s left,” I would begin, “where is she?”

Then I would begin to miss her. I knew I shouldn’t, but I did. But through all of this blindness, I manage to get few seconds of rationality. Within these moments of such thought, I wonder how I’ll put an end to this, an end to her, an end to life and an end to the endless abyss in which we may be together, even in the afterlife.

But when she returns and after she has left, I remind myself that this play we are acting out is all part of the plan.