Brandiee;*<3's Stories

The Right One pt 2

2008-05-11T04:35:56Z

If youre not ready
&if you havent won
Then dont move on
Just wait for the right one

The Right One pt 1

2008-05-11T04:32:25Z

Im sick of heartbreak
Broken love bleeding hearts
Im sick of pretending
Im sick of new starts
Im tired of pain
Uncontrollable tears
Im tried of wishing
To get rid of these fears
Im wishing for someone new
Someone that loves me for me
Im wishing for something permanent
Someone who sees like I see
I want no more goodbyes
&I just want true love
I want someone to hold
&someone to hug
Because truly Im not
&just to let you know
Im not something to be bought
So dont make stupid bets
On how long we might last
I deserve better than Ive had
&Im not proud of my past
There are certain things I want to take back
But it wouldnt be the same
I wouldnt have learned
&I wouldnt be tamed
Im sorry Im messed up
&Im sorry I lied
But I miss you so much
That I just want to die
Even with all this
I might not change what Ive done
Mistakes make us stronger
&better unless none
Take my advice
&follow your heart
Dont take them back
If you dont want a new start

Rumors

2008-04-08T20:53:58Z

Rumors.
Eating away.
My life.
And my soul.
I’m hearing.
What is being said.
Being betrayed.
Feeling so dead.
Inside.
But now.
It is worse than before.
The one I’m so close to.
Stabbing me in my back.
Acting so fake.
And two-faced as well.
She doesn’t know.
But I do.
I know her little act.
And her little game.
She’s done it before.
I’m not her only victim.
And I may be deserving
But I know it hurts.
It has been so long.
Since I have done it.
Then she turns right around.
And she does this shit to me.
What did I do ?
To deserve this pain.
Why me ?
This is making me go insane.

Maybe

2008-03-17T14:40:03Z

My heart is almost sealed,
But open enough,
Just quite enough,
To let you see the pain I feel.
I never give my heart the chance it needs,
Never letting it stop,
Always beating,
Never resting.
How I always love someone,
I am not quite sure,
Yet my heart keeps getting torn,
But still, I hold on.
I want to be with him,
No matter what the cost,
I’ll never let him go,
But, he wouldn’t understand.
I’m always getting disappointed,
Never relieving myself from this pain,
One day I will let him know,
He’s the one my heart belongs to.
I may be single,
But my heart is taken,
It always will be,
Don’t even be mistaken.
My heart is already torn,
From a previous love,
So I’ll let him have what’s left,
The pain couldn’t get any worse.
Maybe this will all work out,
Maybe the time is right,
Maybe he loves me as well,
Maybe it’ll be alright.

I hate you

2008-03-08T22:51:41Z

I hate you.
Just leave me be.
I’m so sick of you,
Stop torchering me.

You act so nice,
Until we’re alone,
Then you get pissed off,
I hate it at home.

You expect me to love you,
But how can I?
You abuse me,
And you ruin my life.

The scars I have,
They will never fade,
It’s a constant reminder,
Of the reasons I hate.

I hate you.
Just leave me be.
I’m so sick of you,
Stop tourchering me.

Tired

2008-03-05T16:53:51Z

Tired

I’m tired of fighting,
This troublesome disease.
I’m worn out,
Weak and tired.
No longer so strong,
I need to escape,
Forever.
I need to rest,
Rest in peace.
So please just give me the space,
To step back and breathe.
Life is tiring,
And exhasting, too,
But the worst part is,
I’m worn out by you.

Who Am I ?

2008-02-14T20:50:40Z

Who Am I?

Day by day,
Night by night,
I walk through the woods searching for light.
I wonder if I will ever have a dream…..
Every night I think I hear a scream.
The radiance of the sun is beautiful to me,
But nothing is ever as it should be.
The world is ok, I guess its fine,
But the question is who am I?

The Point

2008-02-14T20:48:55Z

The Point

I have all these thoughts,
Racing in my head,
Most are troublesome,
Some are more relaxing.
I’m not sure,
What is to become of me?
I mean,
What’s the point?
You live,
You die,
Why do we live?
Why don’t we just say goodbye?
Loved ones will live,
For a short while,
But in the end,
We all die.
So what’s the point?
To this life.
From the beginning,
To the end,
A cold world that we live in.
Why isn’t the time now?
Why must we wait?
Impatience we may have,
But we are really filled with curiosity,
But now I know the point,
The point to life,
Friends and family,
Love and hate.
It’s all the same.
Sooner or later,
We are all forgotten.
We are all prisoners.
That is the point.

Loosing My Life

2008-02-14T20:47:44Z

Loosing my life

I’m loosing it
Everything
Loosing myself
Loosing my dreams
I’m loosing my life
My heart my soul
Loosing my distance
Loosing control
Loosing my laughter
Loosing my place
Loosing my vision
Loosing my face
Loosing my impact
Loosing my balance
Loosing my troubles
My self control
Loosing my patience
Loosing my blend
Loosing my head
Loosing existence
Loosing my time
Loosing my life

The Story of My Life

2008-02-14T20:44:20Z

The Story of my Life

I’m hurt,
Cold and heartless,
Unable to love,
And to be warm,
Sad and upset,
Heartbroken at the least,
Filled with regret,
Hatred and jealousy,
Unhappy and mad,
Broken and pale,
Filled with tears,
Pain and agony,
Unloved and tortured,
Crying inside,
Numb and forgetful,
Regretted and burned,
The story of my life.

I Need

2008-02-14T20:43:43Z

I Need

I need to see,
To touch,
To breath,
To feel,
To face,
To hide the disgrace,
To help,
To hold,
To see,
And be bold,
And be me,
No matter how hard it may be.

Become Me

2008-02-14T20:41:37Z

Become Me.

Take your chance,
To become me,
Good luck with this shot,
Good luck handling me,
Wait ‘till you discover,
What’s in store for you,
You’ll hate the feeling,
And want something new,
Put yourself in my position,
And try to see,
The good in life,
There’s only evil for me.
I need a change,
Please take the challenge,
The pain torcher and agony,
Come on,
Take your shot,
Become me.

Watch

2008-02-14T20:39:44Z

Watch

Watch me lash out,
As I scream in vain,
Watch as I make you,
Feel all of my pain.

Watch me suffer,
As I loose control,
Loose contact with reality,
And contact with my soul.

Watch me scream in anger,
In pain, hurt, and agony,
Watch as I forget it all,
Everything to do with me.

Watch as I go crazy,
Watch as I do it all,
Watch me helplessly,
Watch me as I fall.

Watch me as I’m shaken,
By what I’ve just become,
Watch me as I’m startled,
By what I have just done.

Watch as I start crying,
And breakdown in front of you,
Watch me as I loose it,
I want to become someone new.

Watch as I start to heal,
Slowly but surely it’s true,
Watch me start over,
Watch me forget you.