Little Red Pills

by `espressotherapy.

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Spilled out in front of me they taunt me. They asked if I am going to have the courage to do it. A glass of water, an empty house, a month’s worth of sleeping pills. Do I have the courage? Do I have the guts?

One by one I count the little red friends in front of me. Sixty little tablets in all. Sixty tries and sixty disappointments. I organize them into lines, into shapes, into a picture spread out across the counter.

A note written on the fancy stationary given to me to write thank you notes on. Thank you notes to people who’ve long ago forgotten me. Calligraphy pen dripping ink like the blood dripping down my arm. A note of myself, my legacy, my story. A note that in my only remaining way of communication. A note signed with my good signature, practiced time and time again just for this purpose.

I’m upset and no one is their for me. No one cares anymore, and neither do I. I live in a constant state of apathy. I cry for you, for me, for all my loss. Ready.

I toss my head back, swallow the water & wait..

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Average Reader Rating: 5.0 stars out of 5

  1. Little Red Pills

    One Time, One Chance's Buddy Icon One Time, One Chance

    Posted 11 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    awmygaush. nice job capturing the view of somebody who’s about to.. do.. that. =[

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    someday_93's Buddy Icon someday_93

    Posted 11 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    Oh. My. God. This made me cry…DON’T DO IT ! Just…I don’t know…puke them back up or something…no no no no…okay, sorry, being melodramatic now. Great story, though. You captured the emotions perfectly. Absolutely perfectly.

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    Note In a Broken Bottle's Buddy Icon Note In a Broken Bottle

    Posted 11 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    This is beautifully written and it really captures the emotions. And for anyone reading this who has ever thought about committing suicide just don’t do it. There are so many people that care about you, more than you would ever imagine. I know this from experience. Just remember that no matter how alone and unloved you feel, in reality there are so many lives that would be affected if you take your own away.

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