Still Smiling

by someday_93

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I’m the happy girl, I know that. I’m your constant. That’s why I smile for you, day in and day out. Even when I think the whole world in falling in with me at the center of it, I’ll smile, because that’s what I do for you. Yes, I love you.

But that love isn’t enough. Because you don’t really know me—only the girl I pretend to be. You look at me and see…happy, smiling, sweet. That’s why I’ll smile for you. I look in the mirror and see hate, imperfection, ugliness. Sometimes I wonder why our vision is so different.

You must have known that it was all just an act. That I was just pretending. I’m good at that; you’ll never know what was really in me, not until it’s too late.

This cut, right here, is the one that will end it. This slit is the only way I know to ease my pain, the pain I hold inside, day by day. I can’t show you this pain, because it would distort the perfect picture you’ve painted of me.

There will be blood, and tears. But I promise, I’ll die smiling, because that’s what you want to see.

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Average Reader Rating: 5.0 stars out of 5

  1. Still Smiling

    Blusparrow's Buddy Icon Blusparrow

    Posted 9 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    aww that’s sad. And its so well written you can feel the cut and you kind of wince. great job!

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    `crayola.'s Buddy Icon `crayola.

    Posted 9 months ago

    wow. this got to me. i really felt it. your writing is just amazing. i can feel the cut, the incision, the pain. i can see the girl faking her smile (because that’s what i was doing all day) Great job once again.

    E.

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    .:band baby:.'s Buddy Icon .:band baby:.

    Posted 9 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    I totally agree with the above. I won’t restate it all though =)

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    Blossom Ruoqen's Buddy Icon Blossom Ruoqen

    Posted 9 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    I agree with this totally and completely and I know what it is to fake smiles and happiness – all of it. and the reason I do is for other people, because that’s what I know they want to see: Because I know that’s what they think of me. Sweet, loving, innoscent, happy, bubbly, is what they expect to see. So that’s what I show them.
    Excellent job in portraying the pain and reasons going through this girl’s head.

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    lilly <3's Buddy Icon lilly <3

    Posted 8 months ago

    wow. thats really all i can say. its funny how you can put all that emotion into somthing like that. and well all the other things i have to say have already been said so i wont sound like a broked record here.

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