What I could be,what I want to be,and what I wish I would be were all different matters.
What I could be is something amazing but can I try and can I make it?Or do I want to take a risk?Is this really how I feel?I did not know.
What I want to be was something impossible. Or is it? Do you think I could really do this?Or is this courtesy and lies to get me feel better or to crush me inside?
What I wish I would be is a something.I want people to look up at me,but now,I feel like I’m the one looking up.I feel defeated.I feel vunerable.
My dad told me that there are people who are gonna be better than me and people that are worse than me and I understand that.”Be yourself and be the best you can be.”I feel like I’m nothing.I feel like I can do nothing.All these people are better.I feel like I’m the worst no matter what.The feeling of looking up to others you know are better crushes me.I want to be some much like them but I cant.Maybe I’m just not good enough. Maybe dreams don’t come true. Maybe I’m a failure.