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Therapy Session: Guilt

“You shouldn’t feel guilty.”
“I’m getting used to mothers absence, makes me feel how easily my being gone would be for others.”
“Part of that is natural, humans are adaptive creatures you’re noticing the shock has worn off.”
“Doesn’t seem right to go on.”
“You have to.”
“Now the day to day without her it shouldn’t be so quick to move on, I feel guilty.”
“You shouldn’t feel guilty.”
“It saddens me that I make no impact that I’d be forgotten weeks after im gone.”
“The people who matter the most wouldn’t.”
“That’s not true. I rememeber her eveyday, but I eat, talk, read, write laugh, it’s like she never existed”
“I’m sure she would want it that way.”
“I should be crying every day.”
“The thing you don’t understand is the crying all day is a stage in the grief process. You move through it with time.”
“Why aren’t I crying like I did before the holidays?”
“Because it takes a natural course and you don’t stay in the first stages forever, you’re just learning how to deal.”

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Therapy Session: Guilt
keelhauler42
Posted 10 months ago

Incredibly touching piece.
Therapy Session: Guilt
someday_93
Posted 10 months ago

Wow, definitely true about grief, and I like the images I was getting of therapist and patient. Is this a true story?
LoA
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emma jo_234
Posted 10 months ago

Wow….is this, like someday asked, a true story? When my mother died, I felt like this…and still do, sometimes. And all I can say is, it’s not true that you just forget about the person. A day doesn’t go by when I don’t think of Mom. Wearing a piece of her jewelry, looking at a photograph…it really makes you think, in a way that is both grievous and joyful.
Therapy Session: Guilt
judee4u2
Posted 10 months ago

That’s exactly the way it works! The guilt feelings about moving on. But life goes on no matter what and there is nothing we can do about it but deal with it. Laughing one minute and crying the next! Great job!!!
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Apostrophe
Posted 10 months ago

You captured the raw emotion that one goes through while grieving a great loss. You always have the support of friends along the way.. never forget that.
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THX 0477
Posted 10 months ago

Again, I find your self-disclosure bold and daring. You’re a bigger man than me in that sense. If you are indeed in therapy, I do hope it is productive and helpful.
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