we stood in that same spot for the longest time

wanting to move but frozen; paralyzed in our own thoughts

i wanted so desperately to go and run to him, to hold him but i couldnt

my legs felt like paper, as if i moved i would fall over and gently float away in the wind, swinging back and forth

the tears rolling down our cheeks froze in the icy cold air

my eyes were so fogged up with them i could just see a single blur

him standing there and staring back at me

was he crying too? i couldnt tell

id like to think he was, feeling the same heartbreak i felt

and for a second it looked like he was going to step forward, but he inched back and the darkness of his own reverie swallowed him whole

we muttered a single sentence as we parted

turning our backs on everything we had felt

everything our heart had told us

but to listen was too much to bear

and as we said our solemn goodbye those words would stay in my thoughts forever, to haunt me until the day i die

i love you