I Could Be

by Fyora Cartagan

I hate her. I loved her once, but she has become what she herself hated.

How does she expect me to continue to love her when she has become what she hates?

She’s abusing me, but there are no wounds to show the authorities, so I can’t complain.

I’d rather if she hit me, I could take that. I can’t take what she does, and she knows it, so she just does it worse.

...What’s worst is that this could almost be about me sometimes. I know my boyfriend thinks, and has thought, this same thing about me when I act like her.

But, at least I don’t act like it all the time, and he knows how to snap me out of it instantly. Thank god for that, or neither of us might be here today.

I admire my grandfather’s strength. I hope I and my husband have that same tenacity.

I will never admire my grandmother though. She is a leech.

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    Posted 2 months ago

    omg. this is exactly how i am feeling right now. only take out grandmother and put in father. Funny u mention about being like her, cuz u know what? right now my main goal has been not to in any way, shape, or form resemble my father? is that how u r feeling like a little right now? if so, then i guess we feel the sm. thnx for this story! it helps me realize im not alone.

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