Missing You, All the Same

by Valley Fey/Pinprick

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I look at your picture before I go to sleep and I touch your face. I wonder if you can see how I cry every night. I know you didn’t believe in God, I didn’t either. It just makes this harder. Not believing in Heaven and Hell is easy until you lose someone, then all you can do is wonder.

I wonder all the time. I sit here on my bed, where you left me, begging you to stay. I was afraid to tell you, afraid that you’d react horribly. I’d never even thought…

My hands tremble in front of me, hiding your face from my memory. I can’t bear to look at you anymore. It’s been almost a year now, and I still can’t look at your face for more than a few minutes. Just like I can’t stand to look at her.

She looks just like you, your daughter. It pains me to hear her cry, to look at her. It shouldn’t. You left in anger that night, and it was your fault you died. All of this is your fault. I still love you, but for her, I can never forgive you.

I may miss you, but I’m glad you’re gone. She’s better off without you.

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Average Reader Rating: 5.0 stars out of 5

  1. Missing You, All the Same

    Blusparrow's Buddy Icon Blusparrow

    Posted 6 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    I like it! Very sad, but has remorse too.

  2. Missing You, All the Same

    Capital "W" Writer (LoA's Geekus Awesomeus)'s Buddy Icon Capital "W" Writer (LoA's Geekus Awesomeus)

    Posted 6 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    Ouch. Very harsh, but with a truth to it that can’t be denied. Well done.

  3. Missing You, All the Same

    xxcatiexcatxx's Buddy Icon xxcatiexcatxx

    Posted 6 months ago

    4.0 out of 5 stars

    Aww… this really made me think, since I’m an aithiest as well…. :\
    Very nicley written though! four stars!

  4. Missing You, All the Same

    Valley Fey/Pinprick's Buddy Icon Valley Fey/Pinprick

    Posted 6 months ago

    Cool, thanks!

  5. Missing You, All the Same

    Blossom Ruoqen's Buddy Icon Blossom Ruoqen

    Posted 6 months ago

    Everyone wonders that some time or another. It makes you wonder even more: why do we want to hope so badly, what makes us want to live out fully, if all we ever do is die in the end? Humans’ design can’t deal with death, and our body should be able to regenerate forever, but our cells start deteriorating because of a sickness called ‘old age’ that we were never meant to catch

  6. Missing You, All the Same

    thebetweenspace's Buddy Icon thebetweenspace

    Posted 6 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    Wow, really good. You brought a complexity to the character, conflicting emotions, real and intense. Very well done.

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