Breaking Up and Breaking Down

by [pens&feathers]

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“How have you been?” I asked, trying not to cry.

“I… I’ve been listening to all of your favorite songs.” He paused for a minute. “Look, you can’t call me anymore. I’m sorry. Just… do what makes you happy.”

He hung up, and I whispered into the dead receiver, “What if I don’t know what that is?“

It’s been a long time since then, since the first time my heart was ever really broken. For a long time, I didn’t know what to do with myself – I just felt kind of empty, deflated. Directionless.

It took a while for me to realize that the relationship I had been in for two years had not been good one – we hadn’t been happy. And, even then, as I sat there with the silent telephone still in my hand, I wondered what happy really was.

But, believe it or not, that heartbreak is what I now consider to be one of my defining moments. It was exactly what I needed to begin to figure out who I really was – separate from anyone else.

I got to know myself.

And, you know what? I really like her.

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  1. Breaking Up and Breaking Down

    wytherwings' Buddy Icon wytherwings

    Posted 3 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    i love the last two lines. really powerful

  2. Breaking Up and Breaking Down

    Blusparrow's Buddy Icon Blusparrow

    Posted 3 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    Thank you for entering! He changed you, it might have been a heartbreaker but the out come was for the great good.
    LoA

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    Storykeeper of Fae's Buddy Icon Storykeeper of Fae

    Posted 3 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    That’s exactly what it’s like! The event described in my poem led to a complete rebuilding of myself, developed my journalling habit, forced me to write nearly incessantly, imagine almost manically, and all around learn who the heck I was. I can relate to this completely. Beautifully written, as usual. You must get sick of me saying that, eh?
    LoA

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    [pens&feathers]'s Buddy Icon [pens&feathers]

    Posted 3 months ago

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    Thanks guys! Exactly, this was that period in my life when I did a LOT of art and started to write poems and develop a personal style. And of course not, Storykeeper. I always appreciate your comments. :] (Sorry, rated my own story by accident…)

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