When Is It Enough?

by Music-Hearted

It’s hard to separate the two “me’s” now. There’s “Before You” and “After You”, but the two have become like one. You’re never truly gone. My memories of you, your influence, your power over me, have fused these two together; one soul, one heart, one mind, instilled with your very being.

This is an outlet. If I spill these thoughts, if I bleed enough onto paper, can I get your essence out of my blood?

When will it be enough? When will I have suffered enough, written enough, cried enough, let go of enough that you will be gone, once and for all? I’m trying to find that breaking point, the place where I’ve had enough of you, and I can actually let you go. The place where you cease to exist within my words, my thoughts, my writing, my heart.

I’m still looking for it. When is it enough?

Comments

Average Reader Rating: 5.0 stars out of 5

  1. When Is It Enough?

    penguincaptain18's Buddy Icon penguincaptain18

    Posted 3 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    Wow. I’m blown away. Its like you were looking inside of my head when I was writing the prequel and found those feelings I couldn’t find the words to express and put them here. You did a fabulous job. My fave part was “This is an outlet. If I spill these thoughts, if I bleed enough onto paper, can I get your essence out of my blood?”. Seriously awesome Ficlet. Words cannot express what this makes me feel. Great, great job.

  2. When Is It Enough?

    John Perkins' Buddy Icon John Perkins

    Posted 3 months ago

    5.0 out of 5 stars

    I agree the captain, very well done. And it flows very nicely from the previous ficlet, using a similar stream of consciousness approach and style.

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