The sickening guilt hit me with surprising force. I remembered all the times I’d unloaded my problems to her and how she’d sat there, calm and kind, stroking my shoulder and trying to find ways to make it better.
I remember back so long ago, when… Cynthia (I forced myself to think the name) had told me about all her various boyfriends, her home troubles, her drunken father’s problems, I’d listened to them all. I’d comforted, I’d consoled.
Suddenly I wondered what happened to that kind, compassionate boy. The one who gave to others, and sacrificed to others, instead of selfishly claiming all the attention, begging for help but refusing to return the favor.
Paige had just told me she had been abused.
But all that had just disappeared, the instant she’d mentioned… Cynthia. Suddenly, Paige had ceased to matter and I’d ignored how she had just opened up to me, instead focusing on myself. My selfish, selfish, self.
What kind of monster had I become?
Inspired by
I drove straight home, my mind fixated on one memory, swirling about in my head.
A promise she hadn’t been able to keep.
I wa…A sequel to Memory 3/ Remembering Her Face
About the author
Dreamer
Lost in a Paradox.
I came up with the penname Dreamer from a fantasy story I used to tell my friends. ‘Dreamer’ was a character based off of me that could make characters in books and movies come to life. Yeah, I know, I wish.
Current Mood: headache. sigh.
Words of the Month (one for each week because I’ll probably forget to update it weekly): (guess what my theme is this month)
Pomology- the study of fruits and fruit growing
Etymology- the study of word origins
Entomology- the study of bugs or insects
Phrenology- a psychological theory or analytical method based on the belief that certain mental faculties and character traits are indicated by the configurations of the skull. (I might add that this study is almost completely wack. They did get one thing kind of sort of right- that aggression is in the forehead… but, um, so is your personality, so when they cut that part of people’s brains out [if they were too aggressive in jail] then the people became like living zombies with no personality. creepy.)
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Series I’m writing (wrote):
NEW ‘Losing Focus’- a random series of events of a teenage girl’s life. An irregular plotline, it simply gives you glimpses of her life- from the pettiest of details to her more important issues and problems. She hasn’t any outstanding story, she’s just a normal girl. I don’t know if anyone will like this, it’s an experiment I’m messing with. Link to first:
http://ficlets.com/stories/42048
The current ‘Remembering’ series. The ‘story after the story.’ This is a sequel to the ‘Just a Little’ series (see below). This is what happens after the tragedy. This will have a happy ending. I promise. :). Fiction. Link:
http://ficlets.com/stories/31422
The current ‘Smell’ Series (Main characters: Fae and Davincent) Fantasy. Link:
http://ficlets.com/stories/26990
The current ‘I Am’ series. This is a series that examines the different high school stereotypes. Fiction. Link:
http://ficlets.com/stories/22387
The currently discontinued due to writers block Sand Women series. Fantasy. Link:
http://ficlets.com/stories/7007
The completed ‘Just A Little’ series. (Main Characters: Drew and Cynthia) Tragedy. Link:
http://ficlets.com/stories/23458
Link to first of the completed Pika series. (Main Character: Soner) Tree-hugging ‘Memoir.’ Link:
http://ficlets.com/stories/17331
link to first of the completed ‘True or False’ (Main Characters: Andy, Wes, Blake, and, of course, Judie). Classic high school melodrama. Link:
http://ficlets.com/stories/9033
(kudos to lost_at_sea for writing part of this.)
Save the planet. Hug a tree.
Babynameaddicts.com is my lifeline. Need a name for a story? Go to this website!!!!!!!
Courage is the judgement that something else is greater than fear. The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all.
-Meg Cabot
An empty page is an open door into a world you can only dream of.
-JED
No, the world’s still the same. There’s just less in it.
-Jack Sparrow (I love you!!!)
Life sucks, and then you die.
Yeah, I should be so lucky.
-Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn.
A Lady: Sir, If I were your wife, I would poison your soup!
Winston Churchill- Madame, if I were your husband, I would drink it.
Another lady: You are very drunk.
Winston Churchill- Yes, I am. And you are very ugly. But in the morning I will be sober, and you will still be very ugly.
(HAHAHAHA! I love Winston.)
Published on July 05, 2008.
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