this is for k,, my greenish hazel eyed girl… what happened number 2 daughter.,, all the things we used to talk about, how hard you worked to become a caregiver,, so smart,,,LVN and RN,,Rn supervisor in 2 states… when did that demon get you.. when did it make you hate your family,, especially me…i remember all the times we talked,, the times you would call me at 5am lol because you needed to talk… you always said “mom after i talk to you i always feel better” and you know what,,, i felt better too… no one could have made me believe that i would ever feel something like indifference towards my own child,, you have been gone now 7 months,,and i miss you and l.b… i didn’t and still dont know how to help you,,, that demon is so hard to fight,,you have to want to,, you have to put it out,,, you have to say NO. i know we will be back together again,,,,,and i am preparing myself,, in the mean time,, im loving you at a distance,,,