I have worn this mask for quite some time now and I am ready or it to be the real me. I have the happy mask on everyday for the most part but I am not happy like I should be. I made it back for another year of college, I am doing good in my classes, I talk you my best friend everyday; but I am still unhappy. I wish that my happiness was something that I could buy some days. It would make life so much easier for me right now.

I couldn’t even tell you what would make me happy right now and oh god how much I wish I could tell you what would make me happy but truly I do not know.

I knew that this year was going to be a year that was going to be long but I never thought that it was going to be this long. And I’m not saying to it is anyone’s fault for my unhappiness. But I just can’t seem to get out of my funk. I hope that something will change soon.