Today when I got home I cried
Three hours I cried
I was trying to get better for
You don’t know my secret

But who could love a girl who’s
Unstable
Problematic
Fearful
Of who she is

A girl who stares at food
and sees poison

Who looks in the mirror
and sees 115 pounds
Of Hate
Cold Blood
And Hideousness?

There’s only one correct answer
No one
No one could love a girl like that
No one could love me

And so for you and you alone
I tried to chew
and swallow
and hold it down

For you and you alone
I tried to look
in the mirror
and smile

For you
I tried
To love
Love
Me

And because of you and you alone
I failed
Because of you
I can’t get better
I don’t want to get better

You’ve showed me the truth
No one could love a girl like that
Not even me