Here I sit, all alone, with nothing to distract me from my pain.
all of these feelings raging inside of me, and I wonder;
when will this become to much? when will I lose it all?
when will this emotional ride drag me down into nothing?
for this is how I feel; no one understands, no one knows who I am.
I fear not even I can understand myself, therefore I am vulnerable,
to both pain and to suffering.

No longer do I have what I thought I did, I now realize it is gone.
I fear my future holds no hope, I have no dreams, just nightmares.
my list of ambitions ends at making it through the day.
what have I done to deserve this?

Nothing in my past is even worth remembering,
for all is pain and sorrow, inflicted unto me.
How do i get out of this? Of this life, this suffering?
these memories plague me, and wont get out if my head.
what wouldn’t I do to stop them affecting my life?
for now I am hurting the ones that I love against my will,
and the pain just returns to me.