I can say that I miss the whole package but I have never really had the whole package when it comes to you. I have had the small things the things that I love but I want more and I wonder sometimes if you can give me all that I really want. I don’t want to be in that “relationship” where all we can do is sneak around I want to be able to kiss you in public and go out with you for the night. I wonder if we will or if we even can be more then just good friends as you like to call it.

Don’t get me wrong you have been able to give me things that I didn’t think that I would get last year but now I am back this year thinking about what you can really do for me and I want it to be more so much more but I fear that this ride will soon be over. I fear that you will come to your senses about me and you and you will end it. You are different then the guys that are up here but soon or later you will be just like them.