suetsumuhana / the safflower
The time when I would wait is gone
but I have nowhere else to go,
so how shall I start moving on?
When I must stay here, standing still.
Wind-blown leaves now block my door
and snow and rain stick in the lock.
Huddled by the radiator,
no one comes and no one will.
Where were you when I had patience?
Where was I when you despaired?
Missing all the ill-timed chances,
shaking in December’s chill,
wishing I had never dared.