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5 Things Locked So Deep Inside

1. I feel like everyone is deserting me. I feel like everyone wants me out of their life. I feel like everyone is pushing me away – and I just want to be hugged.

2. I cut myself. I’ve done it since I was a sophomore. (senior now) Everyone thinks I’ve stopped, that I’m healed, that the therapy worked. But when I was cutting newspapers for my job all I could think about was stealing the blade and slicing up my arm. It scares me, but it excites me at the same time.

3. I used to believe in Jesus and miracles and love. But I’m not so sure anymore. No one seems to care about me and my needs. No one notices me struggling and I can’t feel Jesus like I used to. I’m so confused about my faith and nothing anyone says seems to fix that.

4. When I write something or make and new icon/graphic or take a photo and no one comments on it I feel like I failed. Like everyone hates me and my work and I should stop doing what I love because I suck.

5. I want to talk to someone, but who would listen? I’m so confused/scared/...

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