1. I get insanely jealous of almost everyone I know. I think that they’re better than me and if I was them, life would be so much better.

2. I wish I didn’t look like myself. I wish I was thinner and prettier people would like me more, though I don’t think people really dislike me now exactly. But then maybe i wouldn’t feel so alone all the time. Maybe I’d feel like I was more deserving of others’ love.

3. I can’t cry or I rarely do. I have so much pain and hurt but it just never comes out. I wonder if something is wrong with me.

4. I hate it when people get upset over stupid things like not being able to go out or w/e. I feel like because I can be so strong over things that are 10 times worse then other people should too.

5. I wish people would see how much I’,m hurting. I cover it up with laughs and jokes but I wish someone would stop and ask if I’m really ok. And I wish that I felt connected to my friends and family. I guess I stopped trying so instead I crave being alone.