I have wished all my life to go back, to go back to the time when my life felt so perfect. Life is less then perfect now. Life has never really been a breeze, but its been hard. There are so many people that probably have it worse then me, I know that, but yet there are so many people who have it better then me and all they want to do is tell me how bad they have it. Tears drip from my brown eyes and land every night on my pillow as the moon glows through my thin blinds. My heart falls apart with every step. A part of me breaks and falls with every movement. Sadness is something you drown in, something thats hard to escape. Its like the trap shut on you, the door closed on you hapinnes with a key nowhere to be found. I want to go back to when the trap wasnt set. My entire life has been me trying to fit a square into a circle. Trying for things to be just right. You learn from your mistakes, lets just say I’ve learned a lot. I want a life worth living. I want a life worth living through.