Everytime we meet its so much more than just conversation. She’s got a power over me I cant shake. Her hips,lips, her every movement desires my company. SOMEBODY HELP ME ! I want to but I dont want to but I do it any way. Maybe If she was ugly I could shake her, maybe if she wasnt as desirable I wouldnt desire her. I DONT NEED HER …but I do need help. She calls me every other night “Im alone, can you come over”? I always answer with hesitation,”umm..ok”. On the way to her house I regret what hasnt even happened yet. I pull up and the love immediatly begins. I lose all control, my hands and lips think for them selves…Im in love for right now. After the love is finished I get dressed and walk toward the door,she kisses me and says “I’ll see you later”.The drive home is similar to a death row inmates last step,Im walking away from life.I pull up at home and I walk into my bedroom,get undressed and lay in bed. I lay in bed with my wife,who thinks shes the only woman in my life…IM SORRY .