“Why don’t you just pull the trigger?” I asked myself. Then you can make the next move, I thought. This isn’t working, I have the map but Leanne has the key to thr door. She always gives me shit about these things, instead of playing her position as a friend. There are other doors but I want to walk through this one. A friend of mine told me to get in where you can fit in. I don’t like that saying; to me it means don’t try.

I’m way too great for that. That mentality is for average, ordinary people. I will not accept that, I can never forgive myself for accepting below standards. Doing that would make e less than acceptable. Here goes nothing. “Friday at 9 is free. Come out with me and have some fun.”