My mind is constantly wandering to different places, I always feel like half of me is here and the other half of me is some where else. I’ve always had this strange problem with creating descriptive fantasies , of which never happen. How do I breathe? How do I think? How do I feel? How do I do anything anymore? I need to get out and get away for a long time. In fact I have always just wanted to hideaway on a tropical island for months. And just isolate myself , and subject myself, wait a second subject myself to what? Why would I want to be in seclusion? Away from my family and friends? I know there is someone out there that can help me. Damn , there they go again, I’m hearing those fucking voices. What in the hell is going on? I can’t hear myself think, all I can think about is self- destruction. Shit ! I keep trying to ignore these pyschotic thoughts. They aren’t rational , they don’t make any sense. I’m so scared . So scared of what? I have absoloutely nothing to be scared of. Someone, help me please!