Why only me?

Why is it so hard to find the right words to say? To find any words at all! Why does it seem like I’m the only one with this problem?
I hate to be alone with one person. It doesn’t matter who it is, boy or girl, adult, teen, or even a five year old!
I fear the awkward silence that always inevitably comes. I don’t fear the silence itself, but the impression that it leaves on the person I’m with. I know they feel awkward, sitting there in silence, and it makes me extremely uncomfortable.
Frustrated, I search my mind desperately for something to say. Anything! Just a few words to break the silence. But like always, my mind is blank, just when I need it the most.
I do my best to plan my life around avoiding such situations. I never go anywhere unless there’ll be a lot of people, and I prefer to spend my free time alone rather than risk the terrible silences that may arise from inviting a few friends to spend my time with.
How does everybody else live without this fear? Why am I the only one? No one understands.

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