“What a pathetic excuse! Why me? Why, J?” you could hear the hurt in her voice. “I loved you…still love you. The words you said…the actions you took.” “I know we NEVER had a relationship!! But non the less, you, you have always been there…when i needed advice…you gave it to me if i needed comfort…you held me tight and i fell in love baby…i fell in love.” she was sobbing now.

I wish i could have a chance to talk to him. See i can’t clear him out, still. I need to tell him how much he meant and still means to me. How much i wish i was in his arms every moment. How i wish he could tell me he loved me. But unfortunately i was led on in a game. I was made to believe i was cared for in a sick attempt to gain something so unimportant. IF YOU WANTED TO FUCK you should have just said so ASSHOLE .