She is sleeping now.

I can’t help but watch her drift in and out of dreams. I wonder what world she has fallen into. Is her mind a safe place, filled with happy things, or is she running and scared? I want to hold her hand and laugh as we skip through the halls like normal. I want to take off the bandages and see her smiling face light up to the music she is so fond of.

The doctor says that it would be best if we leave her alone now.

I just want to see her giggle at the corny jokes we all tell over and over. I wish it was just another day with all of us going to youth group and sneaking smiles as we listen to the pastors message. I wish I could erase the scars left behind. I want to free her from this prison.

No one knows how long she will be like this.

I just wish it had never happened. I just wish I was still religious so I could pray for her. I want to bow my head and make things right. I just want a do over – don’t we all deserve it? She never deserved this.

She is sleeping now.