” what do you mean my mother died????” I was finding myself looking down on the phone as if I was chalking it ten inches from my face or mouth but I can hear someone screaming at it and it was me ” this is the sickiest joke or fucking scheme yet, Lina! Please tell me it’s a joke and I will forgive you for all the rotten things you ever done just to extract more money from me” ” neng, please, please, don’t get angry mama is really dead”. I beat the damned phone on the receiver so fast it didn’t hung up I remembered sitting down and everything quite, didn’t hear a thing. I let my eyes wondered my surroundings from where I was setting..in my dining room swivel chair I can see everything…right to left…all those things i love on the walls, the door to my bedroom..the entertainment center with the t.v. screen but no sound. Why’s everything looked soo..grey?