Could he see what I seeing? I miss him so much, I just want to make him feel…cause thats what he should feel like. I’ve missed him so much, I just cant let him go, I refuse to let go of him. I want him to feel me, I want to caress his skin, to breath his happiness, to inhale his love & exhale his pain, I want him to feel safe in my arms, to be able to cry & to be able to let those emotions leave his delicate body. I don’t want to have sex with him, I don’t want him to make luv to me, I want to be entwine with his body, soul & mind. I don’t want him to leave me again, I want him to look in my eyes and see my sincerity, I want to hold him like this forever.

I wont do that mistake i did to him 3 years ago I want him to see my maturity, how I have become a strong woman, how I can take care of him. Look in my eyes & see what I’m talking about. But yet I can’t say 3 words to him that I been earning to say to him. I still holding 3 words back, I Love You, I want to tell him but I cant. Why Cant I?