That’s some paralyzing fear going on. Intense & questioning.

You should get help. It was your destiny to live, and you have to believe that. You still have to do what your life was made to do. Go out there and life like destiny told you to do.
LoA

I may have overdone it a little bit. I’m not suicidal or anything. I just sometimes wonder why some people walk away from near death experiences and others don’t. I have to admit that God, fate, destiny, is driving me to return to my first love: writing.