It is my greatest fear. I don’t know what to do. It is my greatest fear come true. I have stated it way to many times, I sound like a broken clock. If you don’t already know, it is my friend and my ex boyfriend.

One of my greatest fears is that karma would not help me. He is become happy while I was left in the dust. I thought I was the one that deserved someone new. I thought that I have done everything I can to be the good person. Every time he looks at me, I can see it in his eyes. He is so happy and it gloating to me. Don’t I deserve to be as happy as him?

He treated a women like an item in an experiment. He joked after he crossed the line. You could never tell when he was serious.

Maybe I am just as bad as him. If I was better wouldn’t I be with someone and he wouldn’t. It is almost like a shameful walk every time I walk by him kissing her. I wish the fear would leave and I could care less. I may seem jealous and that may be true, but to me it is a fear come true.