The dialtone ran through my ears like lungs pulsing, looking impatiantly for air. Thats how I felt. I needed him to pick up his phone, words I needed to blast out, like a canon waiting to fire all it’s got. “Hello…”
“Welcome to Message Bank. The caller you are trying to contact, is unavailable…”
I hung up quickly. My heart was screaming. Terrified to hear my soulmates voice, but terrified to leave words unsaid. He leaves in the morning i thought. That jumbo jet will take him more further away than he already is. Take him to a whole new country. A whole new world.
How can it been so hard to tell someone you miss them? It’s like telling every humanbeing on the face of the earth, what you have to say. Using a megaphone, and screaming out 3 years of locked up secrets. I have the key, I just can’t unlock the chest. If I do, I might lose the treasure. I was so used to holding onto that one, simple memory of us, yet I so wanted to tell him how I cant sleep at night. How I cant dream at night. Without him.