Since he left me, I’ve felt alone and wish I could go back in time and correct my mistakes during our month and a half together. I know it can’t be done though. How tragic life can be when you physically are not alone but your heart is weighed down with lonely emotions. How I wish I could tell him I love him still, but he refuses to even look at me. How I desperately wish I could be the one walking beside him and holding his hand. I know I could change and be a better person. Most times I feel as if I am invisible in his eyes. I wish I had a decent amount of courage to tell Drew I still care, but he ignores every sense of my presence. I pray that happiness will soon fall into place and I will not be forced to pretend anymore. I am so tired of tossing and turning, dreaming and make-believing I will finally be with him again. I will wait for him no longer. Suffering will still be held deep within me because I know happiness is just “a candle blown out.â€?