the anger, the white hot fury, the rage, the self loathing and the need to end it all
trust and love against all intsincts, betrayal…hate, no…cant hate…can i?
confusion, wishing for love, never getting it, sadness, desperation, insanity…but wait, im sane? right?
stupidity, yearning, loving, wanting, needing and being forced to let go…but, i i said i wouldnt…didnt i?
lies, deceit, pain, lots of pain, cant feel anything else, why do i hurt so bad? is it her… or is it just me?
to cherish, or to forget, to try, or to give up…what, give up what? what did i have? nothing…emptiness, heartache
there is another, old feelings coming back, like memories, slowly, but they are there…what are they, who is she?
confusion
confusion…
both hurt, both cause pain, unbelieveable pain…sorrow, incomprehensible loneliness
confusion
why?
her?
them?
why…?
what did i do?