Ben was someone I thought of for years after we went our separate ways. My thoughts would always drift back to him. Most of the time it was curiosity, what is he doing these days? Is he happy? I missed his friendship and missed having contact with him. I just wish I knew about him.

Finding his photo online brought back so many memories. It became clear why my previous relationship failed. I still had feelings for Ben, eventhough I was with someone else. It hurt to mention this person to Ben. I thought he would be happy for me, but he wasn’t Was he jealous? Is it possible that he felt the same way about me?

It was hard to tell how he truly felt. He never told me what his true feelings were. He always had a girlfriend. I was always secretly jealous of them. I would often wish I was them.

I moved on from my failed relationship, feeling lost. Not ready or willing to move on. I was never a fan of rebound relationships, they never worked. I felt alone and heartbroken. Life would never feel the same.