trapped in a world where nothing feels safe
surrounded by a sea of indifference and even hate anger at the world for making me hurt this way rage coursing through my veins, thickeneing my blood, making me feel sluggish, filling the arteries with what feels like crushed glass, every movement hurts deep inside my body, every breath feels like inhaling a lungful of chlorine gas, burning my throat as tears of pain and sorrow fill my eyesi wish to rid myself of this persona, this bitterand sarcastic lie that is my life, to show the ones i cherish the broken, loving spirit that resides within me, but i am afraid, afraid that they will laugh at me, or worse still, pity me
i dont want pity, i am at least strong enough to have kept living for this long, and that should account for something, shouldnt it?so i will grin and bear it, with my teeth clenched in agony underneath the smile that many see on my face
the pain is good, it tells me im still alive, and it shows me im still human enough to feel
feel what, love?