why did you have to go?
why do you feel the need to leave me alone
you called me weak, you told me to toughen up or die, i tried to toughen up, i tried i really did, the thing is, i dont know how to open up anymore
i know you think im a failure every time i look into your eyes i can see the dissapointment, the resentment, the hate
you are the one person i sought acceptance from
the one person whose opinion truly mattered to me
the one person that could make me love you and hate you at the same time
and still you hate me
i tried so hard to be what you wanted me to be, i tried so hard for your love, i had to watch you go once before, please dont make me have to do it again
you were my best friend
you were the person that i looked up to, the person i dreamt of being, once upon a time, there was nobody that was stronger, or tougher, or smarter, no one i loved more
i know you hate me, but god damn it dad, im your fucking son, i love you, doesnt my love matter to anyone? doesnt my love matter to someone?