Dear Diary(or Journal) January 15

Am I a Guy??!!

Well physically, yea im a guy(I can even have my doctor testify to that fact). But I have been feeling increasing feminine lately. That sucks because if my teammates found out they would kick my confused butt. It is not that I want to be a girl, no wait, do I? Well the fact of the matter is I have been having weird thoughts.

Why am I even keeping a diary, I mean journal? Well my girlfriend Melinda recommended it to me, she said I can record all my manly thoughts in them. Boy was she wrong!

Like it is kind of confusing when I say I think weird. Take this for example: The other night I was kissing Melinda on her porch. I stopped and I looked into her eyes, then down at her lips. I began to wish my lips were a little bit fuller, like hers. I wondered where she brought her lip gloss. I looked at the soft curve of her cheek and wanted to reach out and caress it. I wished I knew what she wanted from me.

Does this make me homo?