I’m in a state of confusion.

Swirls of colors, sounds of laughter, feeling of tears, beating of music, feel of the keys against my fingers, snapping of the shutter of the camera, smells of food, aching back, vibrating phone, yelling, scolding, singing, fizzing, crashing, clashing, cracking, barking, clicking, screaming… everything needs to stop.

Press pause… Rewind. When did this happen? How did I miss it? I was going in circles, everything was clouding my vision, and, I missed it. Look at that, look at it, right in front of you… how did you not see it? It’s completely different.

That, right there, staring at you. Staring at me. That’s me, and it’s you too. We’re staring at the same thing. How that happen, how could I not see it?

Maybe it’s a good thing I didn’t. Would I have tried to stop it? Tried to stay the same person I was?

Who knows, definatly not me. I can barely keep up with that person staring back at me, in the mirror.

The question is, is that girl better now, or worse?