I was wrong, okay?!?

It’s not like you were really straight with me. It never happens!

You said you had a “big day” today. You didn’t look happy about any of it. I could tell your “big day” wasn’t a good thing. I’ve never seen you like this!

You’ve been depressed for weeks, damn it! And you wouldn’t say why! Why … ?

When you woke up and said you couldn’t even move, it started to click for me. You said you didn’t want to see another “one,” whatever that was. The look in your eyes was so desperate, I thought I was doing you a favor.

I love you, don’t you see? I wouldn’t have done this for anyone else, and you know it!

Don’t look at me. I know your eyes detect me. Even with the bullet in between them.

You were never, ever straight with me! I’m so sorry. That’s what happens when you’re so damn coy about your life. Well, you don’t have to worry about “life” any more, eh?

By the way, happy 40th birthday.