I had every reason in the world to call her, but something just screamed NO! inside of me. I put down the phone, and picked up the GH guitar. I started the song ‘The Kill’ by 30 seconds to Mars. It fits… i thought lazily.
“What if I wanted to break…”
The main chorus began, and I just stopped… I dropped the guitar and fell to my knees… It felt like the music was a thousand miles away, but I could hear the words still penetrating me.
“Bury me, bury me… I am finished with you…”
I suddenly got up, feeling as if i was outside of my body. I fell against the wall and punched it as hard as I could. I stood there, realizing what I’d done, and laughed at the fist-shaped hole that was staring at me in the wall.
That’s all i remembered from that night… the next morning I woke up sprawled on the floor and my chest tearing at me from the inside. I don’t know whether it was from the pizza, or the pain from what I realized was my broken heart…