Amber… I understand where your coming from, but you are the one who angered me so. Its just the very thick of it that hurt me so. After the Jen incident I promised myself I’d never put faith in another women. But you, you were just so wonderful, and you convinced me without an effort for me to let you into my heart… I trusted you, I put faith in another being to guard my life.. and every time you betray me, forsaken me… it just makes me upset that I allowed another scar to form… I’m sorry…

I guess, after all the times I said I could never break a promise, I did break my promise to one person. Myself. I’m just afraid with this happening twice in my life that I’ll never be able to open my heart once more… and from now on, I’ll only compare them to you, and no one will ever match up to you… your just so wonderful… but maybe we’re not meant to be. I wish otherwise. Anywho… I’m sorry, truly am, and I just want to say I could NEVER hate you, only the actions you make… just live happy.

So please, live happy, unlike the way I will for a bit. Oh how I long to hear your voice tell me all those sweet things you say. Today I found myself changing everything; passwords, my aim accounts (I have Korirei and a new one I will only use.) I just wish it didn’t happen, now of all times. So I’ll accept your goodbye… and say goodbye back. I love you, still, now and forever.