Monday, May 26, 2008

Could it be different this time?
Every time I think things could work, it’s like every time I’m jinxing myself because nothing seems to get better after one night of him leading me on to believe that he may want to start something up.
I feel like I’m totally kidding myself to try to go for him becasue I feel like I’m just getting my hopes up and I really don’t feel like crashing and burning – again.
I would always think that it would be other things getting in the way, but then I would begin to realize that maybe I was the reason he didn’t want anything.
After Friday, though, I thought it was just going to be another one of those other times where it’s just for one time and then he’d ignore me and forget about it, but the next night, he text messaged me just to say “hey whats up.”
I will admit, this did get me a little hyped up, but I don’t want to let my guard down too soon because with him, you never know…