the key slides into the ignition
my hand turns the small metal object, and as the motor kicks into life
i become another person
i move the stick into first gear, my left foot releases the clutch, while the right steps on the gas, the truck starts moving
the motor begins to spool out, and i shift, dropping into second, then third, the speedometer rising quickly
the radio is off, windows shut, its only me, and the sound of the engine, telling me when to kick the clutch in and pop into fourth gear
the speedometer reads fifty, then sixty still rising
i lay off the gas for a moment, as a corner comes up, and begin spinning the wheel
up on two wheels, i straighten the wheel and lay on the gas, truck dropping back onto is base as it leaps forward
i dont even notice as i find fifth gear, the speed hits eighty five, then ninety
i take my hands off the wheel, and look at them, the speedometer is pegged past a hundred
oddly enough, my heartbeat was normal, i felt normal, my hands didnt shake
they still dont