Are feelings so complicated that I will never reach the bottom of my heart’s ocean? How can I be so perfectly splintered over just one feeling? It really shouldn’t matter at all…

But it does.

When it sounds like you’re losing someone… or they’re letting go, you just want to break down…

She says things… amazing things that can make me smile in the darkest hour of the night… and still, when the very thought of hurting her enters my mind, I shiver… I hide away and don’t even want to exist… her soft and barely audible voice over the phone contains worry, frustration, and a tinge of sadness… I can’t stop from absolutely despising myself… I sound so selfish, seemingly unaware of anyone else’s feelings…

I’d really give anything to look into her eyes and tell her that I’d never leave…

I dont care about this world around me, I just never want to hear those words in that indescribable hurting tone ever again… especially because of me…

our smiley…