Thursday, July 3, 2008
10:10 pm

The moments pass. I realize I feel normal. He walks into a room and I no longer feel weird feelings. Things have gone back to normal. Everything’s just casual. We’re just friends.

I’m able to tell him things without feeling completely self-conscious about myself. I can be myself inside and out. I realize the relationship as being just friends was the one I wanted all along.

I don’t even care that he likes someone else right now. There’s no anger or jealousy. Nothing. And it feels good.

I’m happy with the situation. I’m happy for him as my friend. But I’m not completely happy for myself.

I just want someone to like me. I don’t want him – for once! I want someone else… If only he wanted me back…