Hilary was thinking hard. She didn’t know what to say, though she opened her mouth a few times to say it. I knew they were dumb reasons.She probably thought I had much better reasons. I start stuttering apologies when she tells me to “shut up.”

“Sean, you don’t have to keep these things inside. If you are thinking those thoughts you need to tell someone. You need to tell them right away. And don’t worry about Ashley.I’m sure she won’t tell anyone your secret if it means so much to you.” She reaches forward and holds my hand. As her soft loving hands touch cold broken ones, my heart drops to my stomach. How could I do this to her. I shouldn’t have told her, she will just worry. She will just be sad. She will never love me. Just like before, she will never love me.

“Sean. Look at me.” My eyes had readjusted to look at the wall, and tears had started to roll down my cheeks. Now that she has my attention, our eyes lock.

“I will always be there for you.You can call me when ever you need me. I am here foryou”