I don’t know why I didn’t notice them before. The more I look back, the more it makes me realize that they were all there. The signs were plain as day… but if that was the case then why didn’t I realize it sooner? Why didn’t it dawn on me until it was to late? I think it began the moment I met him. At first it started out as simple perverse comments that I simply passed off as a part of his warped sense of humor. Eventually he stopped with his comments and started with the ‘accidental’ touching and while I did find that to be extremely uncomfortable and disturbing, I didn’t think it would escalate to what it did.

Honestly, how was I supposed to predict that I would lose my virginity on my fourteenth birthday to my stepfather? Okay, that is a bit of a lie, but even if I had worried a bit more, it wouldn’t of made any difference because my mother wouldn’t of believed me either way.